Friday, 1 January 2016

Here's to 2016


It's pretty great being back in Glasgow right now surrounded by all of my friends and family to celebrate Christmas and the new year, yet I can't help feeling a little bit sad that 2015 is about to officially end (by the time you guys read this it will already be over!). I can without a doubt say that I have had one of the best years of my life and that I can't remember ever feeling this genuinely happy or closer to my friends and family, despite having spent the latter part of the year away from them all...

In 2015 I truly embraced everything I have ever wanted to do or be. I visited a few amazing places, became a veggie, I bought a swanky new car and I ended the year at uni with an overall 1st in my exams, which led to me being invited to Lisbon to study; one of the best things I have ever done in my life! I met new friends from all over the globe and managed to reconnect with old ones too! Its strange how people sometimes come back into your life despite everything and its almost like nothing has changed. This year has been a year of letting go of the past and finally coming to terms with all of the things I never thought I'd be able to accept; my anxiety for instance has not once held me back and I've said goodbye to everyone who I have lost this year. My closest friendships are stronger than ever despite having a smaller circle of friends and even though some of them have moved away, got new jobs, or found love we have not forgotten about one another. I have found through living abroad that I am actually a nice person to be around despite spending a lot of my time worrying what people think of me or being too nervous or shy to talk to strangers. 

My perspective on just about everything has changed A LOT. I spend much less time concentrating on my looks and feel much more comfortable wearing no make up these days. I have also started to judge other people less which although sounds quite bitchy is something we all do at times whether you want to own up to it or not. At the end of the day discussing other peoples lives or choices can never ever make you happy and will always bring you down so why bother right? I've stopped being jealous of everyone on Instagram with the seemingly perfect life and started to realize how good my own is. I might never get to travel all over the world or have the most perfect skin or thighs or own a puppy, but I'm okay with that for now. I'm completely happy for once and it feels incredible just to be able to say goodbye to some of the most negative emotions which I thought would never ever go away. I have fully accepted who I am as a person and for once I actually like it!

Moving on in 2016 I want to try my best to continue being happy with myself and maintaining all of the amazing relationships I'm so blessed to have in my life. I'd also quite like to visit some of my international friends and depending on how funds are I might even pay a visit back to Lisbon! I think this year I will be trying my hardest to spend less money on clothes and make up and more on travel; afterall experiences can make you much much happier than any materialistic thing ever does; you are always going to be able to bu ya new nail polish but you will never relive your first encounter on the streets of Prague or becoming best friends with your tour guide in Barcelona . I'm also going to be finishing University in the summer although I will be heading back for another year to do teaching and I really want to get my head down and do well. I'd love to be able to find a good graduate internship during the summer so I can save a little bit of money. Speaking of I really think I have to move out of my parents house in the near future. Although technically I have moved out three times now at my age I really think I ought to be thinking about moving out permanently. My other half also got a flat recently and I'm super jealous so it has me thinking about doing the same. 

Overall, I am really sad at the thought of 2015 finally being over and yet I am so excited to find out what the future has in store for me. I have always been a massive believer in fate and everything happening for a reason and I never plan my life too much in case it has other ideas. I hate to set myself resolutions so all I will say is that I plan on being the best person, friend, daughter, girlfriend, student that I can possibly be this year as well as trying to embrace all of the crazy things life decides to throw at me! I hope that it can be as good as this one has been! 

2015 it has been a pleasure but its time to say goodbye! 

 



 
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  1. I hope your friendships get even stronger! I can relate; say goodbye to the people you "lost", but there's always going to be a core group of friends and family that'll make the effort to be with you, and stay in touch! I hope you have a great 2016, Lisa!
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